So your mood/life is dictated by the response you get from your eXBF?
The dating site things almost sounded like a tantrum. Like, "If he won't play with me, then I will go play with someone else."
What would the woman you WANT to be do in this situation? Would she focus on HIM or on HERSELF and the all the stuff you need to do/work on to be a person ready for a GREAT relationship down the road?
I need to take my own advice today.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson