just wanted to say hello and hang on man. it's awful i know- and some days i want to run away too. well, alot of days i want to run away frommy life and just begin over.
i have to remind myself that lonely somewhere new with no one - no how - probably wouldn't be so nice either. it's normal i think- how could we not want a new, sh iney, better, fun life again????? we're just humans - ri te.??
i hope you can shake yourself out of it okay- i find if i can just shake myself out of the house and walk - even if i'm storming around town top speed - i have to force myself- and i sometimes count and do stomach crunches to keep my mind from reeling around and thinking and thinking while i walk- it does help. even a sh ort walk- out of house- out out out- NOT THINKING. just a coping technique i use that works alot- it's just all about riding it stinking out isn't it?
it's awful- you've been doing this awhile tho, and you're entiteld to be f'ing tired and ground down into a stinking nub- BUT 0- ta da, you're still here, hyou're hanging on- you're doing good.
you can do this i think, we all can, think how highly we will regard ourselves after surviving thru these awful awful times, awful years, stinking unjust sitch...
ta da- we're gonna be like kissing our own reflection in the mirror - such will be our awe over our successes in just keeping alive and prevailing-
i know, i sound a bit nutty- but ho nestly- look what we've survived, accomplished, have come thru- and continue to plug away at- didja ever think you'd have the guts and gumption???? not me
