Just saw your post, Sandi. I assure you, I keep my emotions and feelings towards everything away from my son. In fact, he really does help me keep the garbage out of my head when we are together. I am very, very, very consistent with him and am well aware that I do not want my issues to bleed into him. I make absolute sure not be curl up on the floor like a cocktail shrimp when he is here. I also know that he can pick up on my moods - so I make it a point to remain positive around him at all times - regardless of my personal feelings.
What she sees in me will not change me. I am, very much, a new man in many regards and nothing can change that - that includes her not noticing or accepting a thing in me at all. The change his here to stay. I often tell myself that if she doesn't see it, it is her loss. I don't know if I BELIEVE it - but I say it nonetheless.
