I'm not pursuing. I need to stop calling him for things, but it mainly deals with care for the baby.
Sorry but if you are calling that is pursuing.
What has changed since he came back?
I went back and re-read some of my previous complaints. Trust is still a factor. He has still found ways to lie about the STUPIDEST things. The whole lying to me about getting an attorney deal...my trust is shattered. Absolutely shattered.
The other issue is - his friends are still his "buddies" and no amount of telling him they are toxic is going to help. I don't, but I also realize he will have to choose for himself. Right now, he is choosing not to see that while he has known them for years, they do nothing for him nor his relationships. And I'm not talking about just me relationship wise. ALL of his relationships have been 3 months or less, until it came to me. I'm still codependent, hence the reason I probably stuck around.
Speaking of that, still codependent, but not NEARLY as much. As far as nagging - It seems he would go out of his way to try and push my buttons...and believe me - he knows which ones to push. I started letting go of the times he would "forget" something, or just not do it until he got good and ready.
It was just the times he made me feel like I was unimportant and that he'd rather hang out with his friends all the time than EVER do anything with me that set me off.
I have not been a nice person the past two months. I admit it. I'm back in counseling to control my anger after all of this. Every Tuesday afternoon, out of pocket plus a sitter
I think going to a friends place out of town this weekend for mother's day will be a good change of scenery. The kiddo will have a pool to swim in, I will have peace and quiet, and I may even have someone to watch the kidlet Friday or Saturday night so I can go out.
Me- 29 H - 36 T - 5y M - 2y D - 11 months BD#1 June 2013 BD#2 H files 10/28/13 Retrouvaille Nov 13 BD #3 H Files 2nd time 4/22/14 Fires L 7 days later. No court dates set Supposedly he's moving out?
