Welcome Tears. Very sorry you're here, but glad you found this place.
Have you seen the postings by Cadet? I think that might help.
Throughout this, have you decided what it is you want in the long-term? Have you wrestled enough with the idea that it isn't you? It doesn't sound like it's about you to be honest.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
