I hate to belabor or make requests of vets and other posters - but I am still wondering what you meant a few posts ago by "xw will see goodness in you". I have very, very much dropped the rope and gone dark. I do not reach out, and if it is not direly urgent (it rarely is) I do not respond. If I have sent more than 2 or 3 texts in the last month (all in response to her) I would be shocked. No hostility, just short and factual. How is goodness part of that? I did take son to make her something for Mother's Day (See previous post) - and it was painful, but I am trying to do the right thing and teach him to honor, love and respect his mother (did I mention that was effing hard?).
I have just been wondering that from you, 25. Wondering if there is a line of site to goodness in me and/or if at least ONE positive memory or emotion will ever resurface in the shadow of OM. Not that it MEANS anything.
