Biggus Dickus: Part 2

[LoisB]

Wow, have had one crazeee busy morning. Just had a chance to respond.

Thanks!!!!!

Gratitude Item Number ONE:

I'm grateful for this virtual community of people who understand the pain but also push me, prod me to move forward because they want to see me succeed. :-)

And, I'm grateful for God and His Way of giving me some serious bonks on the head this past few days in regards to my needing to GAL and take inventory of my blessings.

Last night, I was at a girls' night campfire down the street. A friend lost her husband last week to lung cancer. She has four kids under 17. Another girlfriend invited us all over to sit around the campfire. The kids were running around like wild things and it was much needed.

I also went over to my mom's and cleaned her kitchen. I still owe her money for North Carolina and...while it hadn't occurred to me BEFORE I started, in the middle of cleaning, it dawned on me that THIS is something I can do--something she really needs help with--something which I can do to help pay her back. She doesn't want to hire a cleaning lady right now and I can help put things straight for her.

25, Thanks for all the encouragement and thoughts. It means a lot to me.

D11 has asked me to remain present during the visits. She isn't quite to the place of wanting to be alone with Smokey. He hasn't been a real fixture in her life for quite some time and I think she needs a safety net for a time. I am waiting for her to give the go ahead for real alone time with him. If Saturday is any indication, however, I'm sure she will be able to handle herself in no time.

Side note: Smokey also has a tendency to be his sneakiest alcoholic self while visiting. He has pilfered items from the house and likes to "rummage" by walking around and looking into closets/cupboards and so forth. When I'm here, he doesn't.

I'm remaining in a separate room while he visits.

There's so much more to say...I need to stop for a minute.