No, my user name is different for each of the forums that I am a member of. Be careful in what you share w/others in cyber space.
Are you in a support group in your area of the country? If not, I would suggest that you look around and see if there is something available because I do think you need support in the real world. Cyber space is fine, but there comes a time when you need actual human support as well, i.e., someone you can have a cup of coffee with or meet up for a chat, etc.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
