To hear W talk, she is REALLY done with us. Litany of reasons. Even if she can't have OM, she's talked herself out of me. She's even talking about "faking it until she makes it" to cake eat until she is ready to go. She's scheming about being nice.
And her friends all tell her not to worry about the kids, they'll be fine. Interesting too, that as she tells the story to each friend, and they validate, the story gets worse the next time it's told. For example, as happy as I was that she got her job, the way the story is told is that I was p1ssed because she hadn't told me she was going to do it. And she's telling more and more friends quite openly, so she's pretty convinced she's done with me no matter what. The furthest thing from her mind is trying to repair anything. She has noticed my changes, says they'll be good for the next person.
One friend is encouraging her to have discussion with OM about his intentions - where does he see himself in 1 year, 5 years. Like he's going to be truthful. Either way, her eyes have been opened and she's done with me. Her T told her so.
This will be truly remarkable if this turns around. I know I'm not supposed to believe any of this, but it sounds pretty convincing from a lot of different angles. Most of the things involve romance, intimacy and going on dates, so the longer we're apart, the more ingrained they become, and there's no way to address them.
And she is still totally convinced that I don't know anything about what's going on. Too bad confrontation doesn't work. Can't see anything changing without some catalyst.
Time to really move on as if this is over, and decide how long I can live like this. I'm good until after Aug vacation with kids. Oh, and she isn't coming on that, but she's afraid to tell me.
