Loualea I didn't start this....

[juliegayle]

Hi lou. I have been on here from time to time and noticed you were back more. I need to come back more often to read and keep myself on track.

It seems you and I are stuck in the same place and it seems a rather unhealthy place, at least for me.

I feel like I need the truth from h. Truth about Ow. Truth about his role in our problems. Acknowledgment that our entire relationship wasn't the pit of dispair he has made me to be and that I am not the spawn of the devil he tells everyone I am.


I have to learn to differentiate between want and need because I will never get this from h. Intellectually I know it shouldn't matter to me. My and your hs will do as they do. We need to learn to let go of needing anything from them and find what we want within ourselves.

I will let you know when I figure it out. Your GAL and gratitude journal should help. It is hard to be grateful and angry at the same time.