Thanks Bmom and nyk. My parents have been married almost 55 years now. They still hold hands on the beach, take walks together, etc. I remember them going thru hard times when I was a kid but they always worked things out. That's what I wanted. Why I married a person who didn't "believe" in D. Who swore they would do whatever it took it work things out. Found out just how hollow her promises were the hard way.
Today while cleaning to get ready for my parents visit, I found a bag of "trash" that my W left for me to put out. As I was carrying it it fell open and out came every card, letter, "love" note, Valentine I ever gave her. She threw away all of it like it was nothing! Why is it they can be so horrible after so many years together? It's one thing to "change" how they feel but to be so dismissive of feelings that they once had, I don't understand that.
That just knocked the wind out of my sails. They make it so hard to care anything about them. Just when I get to the place where I can say "it's not about me. She is in pain and wants it to stop" she does something like this! God, grant me the strength to get through this!
