Let It Go

[BklynMom]

Thanks Wishing and Georgia - I love having my friends on these boards. I know you guys understand and that I am not alone.

I really think I have finally accepted that my xH leaving was not about me being a b!tch. Which is what he told me and convinced me of, that this was all my fault. If I had been a better more loving wife he would still be here. That was a lie. Marriage is work and my xH refused to do anything to work on it.

This doesnt mean I didnt need to improve some of my behavior but I focused for way too long on me and my issues

From D1 of the bomb I asked my xH if he was having a relationship with Jess. He said no - they were just work colleagues. He was too blind to realize he was having an emotional affair with her and now they are moving in together.

Dory Previn "Beware young Girls they know not what they do" She is so right on.

Jess also is in complete denial that if she were not waiting in the wings for my xH that he wouldnt have left me.

I had a girlfriend when I was in my 20s who was dating a guy who was in a bad marriage. I remember the whole spiel. I remember telling her to stay away from the guy but my friend didnt believe me, she kept telling me how their marriage had been over for a long time.

I am thinking that although it disgusts me to meet her, I want her to show her face to me before she starts caring for my kids at her new apartment.

I am also concerned that now my xH will be moving out of this neighborhood and he will not take the girls into account when getting this new apartment. Him living in the this neighborhood has allowed the girls to continue with their regular weekend routines. Do I email, at some point please consider staying in the vicinity.

Back to my regularly scheduled weekend:)