WT, it is best to take responsibility for your actions otherwise there is no hope for changing them in the future.

But if you think there is something going on with you besides all of that, by all means, seek out a doctor. Knowledge is power.

I wouldnt worry about how often you are in contact with your wife. Remember you are trying to hear her words, that she doesnt want to be married.

Keep focusing on you and your kids. Continue to look within and work on the things you need to.

Look into going to a doctor.

One foot in front of the other, right?