Upwards - Needing support, tough times ahead

[Upwards]

WHY WHY WHY can't he just live with his choices and leave me to my life?!

I think that's somewhat obvious....

What am I missing, he wants his cake & to eat it?!
I've had another 2 emails; begging me to talk to him, asking if i'm alright, saying he's sorry, saying that he hates all this...

I'd consider talking to your IC about it....some counseling might be helpful. I know there are programs out there specifically designed for kids.

I've spoken to school to see if they have a counselor, if not i'll look into private or NHS. My IC has given me some tips to help her open up to me so going to try that too.

Keep going! It is a process...it takes time...and you have ups and downs.

I feel FREE again, my life seems hopeful again amazing feeling! I DESERVE happiness & i've got every intention of finding it.

Seriously questioning whether i'm still "standing" anymore, really not sure my H can ever give me what I need to be fulfilled in a relationship, although I suppose miracles do happen.