Don't know what to think

[TL72*]

T-boned,
Just thinking about you, I hope you're feeling better.
I don't think you're on a self destructive path, you're just grieving and we all do it on our own way. It is necessary.
It's hard to accept this, I think we get stuck in denial for a bit but you'll get through it. Sometimes we let go of the rope and then when you see it slipping away you grab it again... I go back and forth, also depends on my hormones dang it. I can tell sometimes I'm more depressed on certain days and I journal to sort of keep track. Then you know that it's just hormones messing with ya and you'll feel better in a couple days. It's good for you to cry of course and let it out. It will get better, I know you're probably tired of hearing that, but it does, I'm counting on that myself. And it has gotten better for me after taking this divorce group. I feel so lucky to have gotten it so early on. Keep writing your poems, also another excellent release. wish you were closer so we could go walking or something! The longer my exH is away, the more I realize that the house is so less stressful now. He could monster and just ruin an entire weekend. Happened all the time when I think back. I gotta admit there are a ton of things I don't miss. I miss the old him, the loving him, but once I started really looking at things, he was a d*ck for awhile and I just have to accept that it is over and done with, in the past. Live in the present and eventually we get to a point where we can plan for our future. Right now though, just one day at a time. (((hugs)))