Thank you why try for your post :-) I am familiar with your sitch and understand you were that WAS for awhile. Your insight is appreciated. Yes, tomorrow is a new and wonderful day. I guess I lost some of my 'in the now' appreciation of the day I am in now. I keep wandering towRds the future and the what ifs.

I think I need to quiet my mind and focus. Because I keep having thoughts of 'what if I never have someone to raise my kids with? What if I never have anyone to share my life with?' Then I think ' you have been doing it for 4 years and you have been great- so whatever is meant to be will be'

Just can't seem to find my balance these days. I don't need h- I want h. When do my wants matter?

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home