I got home and H was nice enough. Less than a good friend or family member.

He just doesn't seem to miss me or ... Anything. All those positives that happened over the past months- they don't seem to have anything really to do with me.

Anyway- I am confused. It looks like he is staying here tonight ( he went out but left his stuff here) and he leaves on Saturday. Maybe he will stay at the house until then maybe he won't. I almost don't care anymore. I thought it was a big step when he did that the last time he was here but now it seems like nothing. Because he is making sure that it has nothing to do with me. Or the stability for the kids.

I am starting to feel like I am standing in vain now. I don't want to feel like that. I have lost some of my strength . I need to get it back.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home