I guess you think this song is about you?

[LoisB]

Will,

such dang hard work. The other day I thought...who is going to take care of me?? I do tell myself to Trust that it will all work out.

Me too.

I've glued to the couch a lot this winter. A lot. I'm beginning to hate our couch!! Lol.

Last night, I watched Emma for the upmteenth time. I was thinking about how I was convinced, as a young girl, that this was how the world of romance worked. We all found our Mr. Darcy or Mr. Knightly and things were just meant to be.

Maybe ours was meant to be, but not in the way we hoped.

Anyway, I was mourning my own Mr. Knightly when I happened upon a bio of Grace Kelly. It was all fluff and wonderful and yadda, yadda...and, I felt myself sinking a bit further.

So, I mentioned on my thread how I couldn't sleep last night. I searched up something about Grace Kelly. Turns out, maybe you've heard, Nicole Kidman has been filming a movie about what some say is the "reality" of Grace's life. And, it wasn't all peaches and cream.

The movie reveals a very different Prince Rainier...someone who was very controlling, unfaithful and abusive to Grace.

She may have been forced to remain in the marriage because she would lose her children otherwise.

I think God put this particular news about the Grace Kelly movie in front of my face for a reason. He seems to KNOW what HE is doing, that Lord of ours.

I watch Emma, I lose myself in peaches and fluff, I watch peaches and fluff about Grace Kelly...AND, THEN, I learn there may be another truth. A very sad truth about her life that she was forced to keep secret. It's only coming out 30 years later. She may have been forced to remain in the marriage because she would lose her children otherwise.

Make a list Wills.

What will you gain if/when H is NOT your husband? Seriously, think about it.

I'm sure there are advantages. What are they??

You are a wonderful, giving, loving, loyal, sweet woman who knows the day-in-day-out hardships and sweet payoffs of mothering a child with special needs.

What he is doing is sad, but is it also a gift? For me, my daughter would NEVER had made the progress she has with Smokey living here. He was too judgmental and tempermental. His absence has made it safe for her to feel safe.

Is your H able to see you as you really are? And, more to the point, is he able to value you as you really are?? I see the above and I haven't even met you in person.