I think I belong here #3

[praying_in_GA]

It will all be done right. I will get what I deserve and the kids will be taken care of. No worries there. I'm just not going to drag it out any longer than it must be. I'm done. I hit the bottom and until I let go of this anchor I will remain here. I'm done hoping and praying and thinking. I'm done and he wins his freedom. I get the kids and a monthly "fat check" as he puts it. He can leave. He can walk away. I've had enough of this life. He wins. Divorce it is and then no more. I truly feel defeated and spent.

I know everyone here is looking out for us. I will not just roll over and let him off the hook. I will take care of the kids future. But my heart is tired. So I'm done.