Upwards - Needing support, tough times ahead

[Upwards]

Is it normal for your feelings to fade when you detach from a person? I know I still love H & care deeply for him but I no longer feel that intense love, worry and needing to makes sure he's ok - it's the opposite, I don't want anything to do with him and have completely let go, I feel done.

I just feel a huge sense of sadness but also acceptance of the situation and where I'm at today, I stand by what I've said in the pas that this HAD to happen to break the cycle of our relationship and allow us both to find happiness however now I've also fully accepted it too.

A big worry at the moment is that if him & OW get serious it will bring a whole new set of problems as I will not allow her to see my kids under any circumstances & will fight this in court if needed, the nature of their R at the moment seems to be friends with benefits but who knows how it will play out.

I'm focusing a lot on GAL but most importantly I'm focusing on my children an trying to provide a stable and loving home for them regardless of the fact that their Daddy is a complete & utter fool!!

Feeling a little sad today, just allowing the feelings and getting on with my day.