Spoue tried I didn't, now opposite #2

[whytry]

Thank you uRworthy, I've been improving myself every day for a while as I learn more and more about myself. My W commented back in January how proud she was of me (improvements) and that one little comment solidified my resolve. Overall, I see the improvements as well, but some days a happy old memory pops up (taking W hunting) and it stays for a while and the loss is hard to bear. I do/did still struggle but every day brings more promise and hope.

I'm doing the best 180 and being so different than what I was is the reason my W, friends, and family think it's a ruse. Just getting the chance now to spend time at baseball, gym, and church with my kids has lifted me up further than probably anything. They are my happiness and its more than I could have asked for. Yesterday my boy did wear me out lifting weights but the time with him so improved my day.

You are so right that it's a goal to be this happy, involved parent every day, but it's also more than that. I've started loving my life again so being that person is becoming natural and it makes changing not only a want/need but a part of me now. Does that make sense?