Overall, things have improved a lot! When I do see H, it is cordial, and there have been no major disagreements about anything. I think right now the hardest part is figuring out how to negotiate all of little things to do with the separation. I just wish that part was all taken care of!
I just know that if I can push through it right now, and get it all figured out, then things will be a lot better. I'm not looking forward to dealing with him, with regards to splitting finances. He tends to give me a hard time about money issues. But I am going to be strong and hold my own. I think in the end both of us are going to be a little tight money-wise. Not really much we can do about that.
So one day at a time I am figuring things out! Funny thing is that he is the one that wanted to separate, and it seems to be me doing most of the work to do with the separation. Doesn't matter to me one way or another, my main goal is just to get it done and over with!!
Feeling a lot happier now, getting out, having some fun, jogging, walking, taking photos, painting, sketching, dancing, you name it! And I am actually enjoying my days that I am alone! Finding freedom..
Although it has been hard being away from the kids half of the time, when I am used to being there 100% of the time! I am just making sure that the time I do spend them is quality time! The kids seem to be doing okay so far with the separation. So far, no major questions or issues.
The hardest part for me in the separation was having to drop the children off at his house... and I have only done that twice, but it was the strangest thing I have ever had to do. Getting easier now though.
One thing that I did not expect through all of this, has been the insight into our whole relationship that I experienced after we separated. Seeing everything from the birds-eye-view, in a way that I have not been able to do before. Realizing that the relationship was not meant to be.
Onward I go on my new journey
Up at at em'!
<3
Claiming Peace, Classy Penguin, Chili Pepper, ~CP...
But, not Chasing Pavements.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
The kids seem to be doing okay so far with the separation. So far, no major questions or issues. 