Crazy pain the last couple of weeks. I unfriended her today which turned out disastrous. I just wanted to tell her why I did and I stated it in a very warm and caring way, but that quickly engaged her defense mode. She bawled and blamed and went on tangent after tangent.
I found out she loves new guy already. They've only been dating a few weeks!!! They have known each other since they were teenagers but have had long periods of no talking. I dont ever recall them talking during our 4 and a half year relationship. The feelings I get from this guy are disgust, pity and I'm actually embarrassed for the way this guy talks to my ex on fb. I've actually lost a lot of respect for her for choosing this guy in the manner she did. I not jealous of this guy. I'm disappointed though. My ex really seems to have had her brain and personality swapped out. Very sad to see.
I've been very dark for the past week although she makes it out like she's giving me space. Our disastrous conversation this morning clearly indicates she has major major family issues. Her thought process is severely out of wack. During the week she did text me from time to time with smileys and fun stuff. I kept it casual and cold by my standards. She called me one day and talked some more about her family issues. I really hope she gets it that it's her own doing. Her mom called her out on it and my ex's response was that people make her feel the way she does. I don't understand how not one counselor she's seen has pointed this out to her.
Here's my dilemma. I'm working very hard to not be angry with her. I just don't know how to act around her anymore. I'm trying to find a balance of being happy and not give a crap. I know she's ill so I have compassion. I know she lied to me and disrespected me so I feel angry. Also, the way we ended this morning doesn't make things any easier. I'm dropping s3 off with her tonight so I'm assuming it will be a quick exchange. I need more space from her I think.
Me-35 Com law-28 S-3 T-6 yrs w/14 mnth bu 1st bu- 2/2012 Rec-4/2013 2nd bu-10/2013 IC-2 yrs(anger issues) MC- 5 mnths-fail OM~1/1/14 OM dumped 6/4/14 New OM ~10/4/14
