No. Rephrase.... I can have sex with him, but I'm a hot mess afterwards (and not in the sexy kind of way).
We were intimate for the first time since my S was born. The actual act was just fine. But today, my mind has been flooded by images of him kissing OW, the pictures that I saw, the messages I read, the condom receipt I found.
I had a full blown panic attack when the kids went down for their afternoon naps.
3 f@cking years. Does this sh!t ever go away?
I told H the kind of day I was having. I told him it's a major issue that we can't be intimate without me being flooded. He said we'd work on it in therapy. Other than more EMDR, I'm not sure what we can do... but trauma was never my field of expertise.
Thank God I have the kids around. They make me contain the crazy a little bit.
