This, That and The Other

[BrightFuture]

Bug, I’ve been reading along about your journey. What you wrote in your answers to KGirl’s questions so resonate with me.

By the time we got back together, there wasn't really anything to forgive or perhaps I just don't think of it that way. I've thought about this since I read your post yesterday. Forgive? Did I forgive? What did I forgive?

In the 3years-ish we were apart I gained a lot of perspective. I progressed from blaming him for everything, to blaming myself for everything, back to blaming him and then finally realizing we both played pretty equal parts in the breakdown. I suppose I did forgive him in a way but it feels more like I just let it go or I moved beyond it.

He didn't leave me to hurt me, he left to be happy. He was unable to do that living with me.

When I was able to really focus inward and be brutally honest with myself, I could understand why he needed to leave. And he had stayed and he had tried, to his way of thinking.

I could write the same things about my sitch.

We have both apologized to one another as things come up along the way.

It would go the same way with me and H, if we would get back together.

I think there so many similarities in our stories. I don’t think that the subject of MC would come up in my case either. And H has not been dating anyone after almost 2 years since BD.

Was your H looking to date someone and just could not find the right person, or he never wanted to date? If I remember correctly, I think you mentioned he had an EA. I might be wrong. My H is looking for a “harmonious” relationship with somebody, but I guess he hasn’t found one yet.

Bug, I always like reading your updates. Thanks for sharing.