Thank you, Claire. I think the events of last night just triggered a fairly intense "lack of faith" moment. It hit me that that was what I was doing this morning sitting in my office. I lose faith very easily that something "better" is out there for me because it is hard for me to fathom what would be better than having my son in my life full time. I just need to try to lean on the belief that something better is coming....hard to do sometimes.
