Hi Bug -- I haven't been back to IC since OM bomb was dropped there. I know I need to go back. I just need to do some solo work first I think to get the most out of it. My C can only do so much.
What scares me about moving forward and letting go? Good question.
I am afraid of missing out on chunks of my son's life. Chunks that can't be filled with pictures, or videos or Skype chats. I miss my boy, Bug. Desperately. And as much as people say "make the most out of the time you have with him" it doesn't take away the pain of him being gone. And this is the way it will be for his entire childhood.
There is so much more I could say I am afraid of, but it is terribly embarrassing and plays into my insecurities.
