Upwards - Needing support, tough times ahead

[Upwards]

I feel so detached it's untrue, it's so nice to have some peace & to not feel consumed by this separation - it ISNT my whole life, I've spent a long time feeling like it is but I have so much more going for me aside from my marriage - it's time to LIVE again, yes I'm sad but there is absolutely nothing I can do about it now.

Well my H keeps sending me random emails about insignificant things that he thinks I'll respond to, he's basically testing the water as he's had no response from me since last Friday & I'd imagine he's missing contact now (going off his track record!).

Staying completely NC and not caving in to his contact is a huge 180 for me but I need to do it for my own sanity for a few weeks. I also refuse to be treated with no respect & he isn't capable of that right now.