glad you're "out there' and sorry to hear about your dad. life is never "just quiet" it seems. i'm distrusting of "quiet" now a bit. anyway- you and he are in my prayers.
it's so hard with parents health stuff- really swirls you into their lives and there's just no answer other than "do it" if you can. seems in life there is never a good time or enough time - but somehow we gotta just pitch in and do what we can - make time if at all possible.
i know i complained like a mad woman about my tormented r with my mom- but i always patched it up and went back in the end. (i even could understand her frustration at being old and sick and in pain and lonely- etc) ( that my efforts could not "fix" all that with her and others) and she needed someone to TELL (AND TELL AND TELL, ...)it just was what it was -
(i had a good friend buzzing in my stinnkin ear - telling me for years and years - just do it- just go over - just do it while she's alive - just over look the problems ) and so, i did. she was right. one day it all became critical and "the end" comes along - and it was easier to let go knowing however imperfect it all was- i was always there pretty much and i think "we were "good" with each otehr.
seems like it happened suddenly - all things being considered - you just never know.
i feel like that too- i could be dead tomorrow - would i be glad for how i spent today if i found out it was my last day on earth? idk - sorry man - i'm too wierdly "heavy" lately.
let me just say good luck and glad you're doing okay and out there still- .
