Thank you for the link, Bug....I think I might have snooped on there before.
GM....If I am being honest, it is a reflection of my own perceived inadequacies and insecurities fueled by her selection of OM....yes, even after D. In my head she has found someone that is the living embodiment of the OPPOSITE of all the things she hated about me and is in total splendor right now. He does everything I DIDN'T do and and DOESN'T do all of the things that I did...and I look even worse to her as a result....it's a confirmation for her that leaving was the right thing to do.
Before I get blasted, I KNOW that this ^^^^ is nonsensical and most likely not 100% accurate. And I don't sit around sulking about it....it just makes me feel "less than", and yes....it is probably just a scene from some elaborate play I have written in my head that include her skipping across stage in the throws of love. I get it. I'm just being open about what I am feeling.
