Still trying to save my family - part 11

[Scorp7]

One thing that's been driving me nuts and may also be why I'm having such a hard time accepting the current situation... I am still friends with both of the women I had long term relationships with in the past. When I was in high school I lived with my high school girlfriend for about a year and a half. It didn't end well but we're friends now and chat once in a while.

The relationship I had prior to meeting my W, which lasted for about 6 years and continued off and on for more than a year after we stopped living together, I am still friends with her. When that R ended, despite the fact we weren't married and had no kids, we tried C for a couple of months.

These people are not my W, the circumstances were different etc. If I can be friends with my ex's, it blows me away that the mother of my children won't even talk to me.

We have three amazing kids, a very full life, albeit way too stressful too often towards the end. I just don't understand why she still will barely talk to me and isn't willing to even consider working on our M.

I'm just ranting a bit, getting this stuff out. The M we had is over. I wouldn't want to return to it the way things were for both of us at the end. The M we could have would be amazing, I'm sure of it.