ladylu, I'm too green to give advice but I can say what I've learned so far. Just be you, proud of you, proud of kids, and enjoy them. I know how warped a guy can get and the entire marriage is crap. Don't believe it. My M has many awesome memories and like db & dr say history gets rewritten. I struggled to understand and am learning more and more every day. My journal is very important to me and I had to buy a 2nd. You sound very strong and I hope you stay that way. Just my little way to encourage I guess but people here are very helpful.
W-37 Me-37 M-16yrs & 5days W "Done" Day = Valentine Day 2014 D-8/13/2014 S16 S13 S11 D8