You will have a distraction now and put H aside a little. I know how hard that is. xSO comes to mind when I least expect it. Habits are hard to break.
From reading your thread, I see that you are still encouraging your friends to gossip about H. Are you sure that is wise?
And Bright, we have been at this a long time together. I think that if you want to give him a little jab, just once, I think you should. If I ever hear from xSO again, I intend to. Not for him, but for me. Even though on some level he must know that this situation is not good for the two of you, he keeps you in limbo. Just as you are hearing things from friends, so is he. Maybe a little shock therapy when the time is right might be a good thing.
Now go buy a fab outfit for your first day on the job. I always feel better in a new outfit.
