It was so nice to come here and see that someone has been looking for me - who doesn't need some sort of favour! I will open another thread, although there really isn't much to tell.
I am sorry for the down days. The down days for me at this point are actually a little harder sometimes than the down days I had closer to the beginning. I guess I can't help but think - aren't I OVER this already? For you, your H is always there, reminding you.
Of all of your reactions, running away is what I constantly feel like doing. But then, I lose the energy to actually do it. If you are able, maybe try to find a weekend to "run away" - stay in a local hotel, take a spa weekend or a mini-break of some sort.
I admire you Jaye. And I cannot wait to see the person you are meant to be - you went from shivering in your closet to holding down two jobs - one awesome one - and facing your decisions with a clear head.
Get the most that you can out of the counselling session. And then come here to laugh!!