I just bumbled into your posts. I read a bit at the very beginning and then now- at the end some. I am surprised and have to say- you sure have alot of bossy old people TELLING YOU what to do, how to do it , what to think, hurry up and do it, hurry up and "just listen" and thank them to boot. wtf/???? is going on in your thread???
My take on this forum & it's Purpose: I thought anything offered up here- to each other- was with an eye toward helping out someone in the same boat - in a kindly way. ONLY THAT- an OFFER of what each of us thought we had to share. even if it's a kind word on a rotten day.
No amount of "pushing" makes a person feel something they don't. It's all got to "come to" us in our own time. You cannot "make it happen". no one can- we can't even MAKE ourselves feel what we don't.
i have no idea what motivates these people to feel free to "demand" of you x, y or z. You only have to just be who you are- read thru and take what you can that is good and can apply, and keep workin on it, on you. It allllll happens in it's own time. (for all of us) (well, this is my personal belief anyway).
i am no glowing success here. I'm lots "better" than when i began. A work in progress. We're all just people workin on our own personal mess of a life. everyone wants to jump up and down and tell you "just shut up and do this- then you will be detached and go on your merry way". it's not true- you have to puzzle your own way thru - in your time - in your own (or my own) bumblie way....
it's just not all that simple. you and me, everyone, has to weed thru a lifetime of "junk" - self, with h or w, with r, ta da.
it's a daunting task- i don't believe there is a hard and fast timeline - so i don't think all the people really (it sounds like it anyway) being all hard on you and bullying you a bit and so on- well, is it really their "right"??? to demand action, results, judge? etc.
we're all here to listen- help - speak our little "truth" so on. i'm just throwing in my own little two cents here- this forum has helped me alot. it should be a place of kindness, understanding, maybe some (kindly) nudging forward - certainly not criticism, pushing & so on . just me- take it for what it's worth.
a thought:
DESIDERATE - by Max Ehrmann
"Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; They too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in our business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself, especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. YOU ARE A CHILD OF THE UNIVERSE NO LESS THAN THE TREES AND THE STARS; you have a right to be here. AND WHETHER or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
With all it's sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful, Strive to be happy.
I THINK VERY PROBABLY- THIS IS TRUE and worthy of consideration.
i think all of us- all of our lives - have taken many years to become what they are today. Maybe we share "fault" - maybe not - for what is going on in our lives with our mates. It's hard and soul-sucking. Just hang on and keep tryin- that's all one can do.
I hope your day is okay- you don't need to "answer" to anyone but your own little self- your heart, your conscience, etc.
