exercise review taxes work look at houses on mls listings figure out what my deal states, then determine what I can comfortably afford. work more hopefully read a chapter of my book work with xbf (?) maybe tonight: women's group meeting (desperately looking forward)
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Also, I catch myself going into autopilot with my thoughts that take me to thoughts of him and his feelings/reactions/doings..... I am trying with all my might to switch that thought (when it pops in) and take it back to "what does Magic want to do", "what does Magic feel about that", etc....... its a struggle, but I feel that at least now I am able to recognize where and what I need to do to get my head screwed back on straight. .... It doesn't matter about him! I matter!
Today, I am angry..... I hate being in the position I am. But, I know its me who keeps me in this position. Hopefully its just a temporary thought and not my feeling for the whole day. Its raining here... probably has a lot to do with my mood. Just checked, apparently PMS too.
.... I am worthy!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
