Magic, I hear you and now the question that I have for you is what are you going to do for yourself? You have all of the tools that each and every poster receives here and, in fact, have received more attention than most...so what are you going to do with the tools? How are you going to start applying them to your situation? I get it that you want all of the suggestions, advice, etc., but they aren't going to help you unless YOU start utilizing the tools and making decisions, decisions that will set you on the right path.
We can't fix your problem for you...you have to do that and in order to do that you have some decisions to make about you, what you will accept and how to go about getting what you want and whether they are right or wrong, you won't know until you try them.
You've made a wee bit of progress, but it's been like pulling teeth to get you to move and I do understand that it takes time for people to finally "get it" and move forward. Now that you think you are "getting it", I want to see more progress, i.e., progress that you are making on your own using the tools that you've been provided with. You'll never learn life's lessons if you don't try and make mistakes along the way. Those mistakes will help you learn what does or does not work. Students won't learn if the teacher or parents do the homework for them and the same applies here.
It's time for us to step back a little and allow you to venture forth from the bird cage and attempt to fly. We've done our part thus far and will continue to do so in the way of support; for now, it's time for you to start doing more for yourself.
Magic, what are you going to do for you today?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
