Spoue tried I didn't, now opposite #2

[whytry]

MrCas, I've actually been thinking about your question and it's one that if I answered today would be that I don't. There isn't anything I can say or do to prove I deserve a chance right now. All I know is what I know inside and the sincere appreciation I have for my W that I've never felt before. Like I said previously these feelings are new to me to because they are as strong but deeper as the time I held her cheeks in my hand, kissed her forehead, and looked into her blue eyes and told her I love her.

The look she gave me way back then was lost about 7-8 years ago. Her eyes give her away, every mood can be seen in them.

Do I deserve a chance, maybe later. I've seen that look twice since Christmas. Once when she told me in January she was proud of me and how well I was doing and a short while back. She has done well detaching and adding distance so she can prepare to D. But that love in her eyes let's me know that she wants happiness with or without me and has accidentally found it at home but I know she's afraid of the broken promises, afraid I'm fake, afraid it's not worth the fight.

So again to answer your question no i don't deserve her today.