WAW...Again

[stumps]

Ugh... so I just got a "it's too late and nothing is going to change my feelings" talk from W. W spent almost the entire day in bed and when I woke her up this evening to tell her it was time to take the kids to her parents for dinner she asked me to sit and talk with her for a minute.

She said she was feeling extremely depressed, and said that it was because of our sitch and how it was affecting her. She said it's been making her uncomfortable that we get along so well and it's been making her feel like I thought she might have changed her mind. She reiterated that things have been great and my changes have been wonderful, and things have been for the past month the way she always wanted them to be, but that she doesn't believe the changes will stick and that even if they did it's just not enough to overcome the past 10 years of heartache and disappointment. I basically told her that I understood her feelings, but I had to keep doing what was right for me and for the kids and so regardless of what she thought about it I had to just keep on keeping on. I said she may be the beneficiary of them, but the changes are for me.

I engaged with the R talk more than I think I really should have, but... she brought it up, so... The short version of what I had to say was that I understood and respected her feelings and her decisions, but that I was of the opinion that what is best for me and the kids is for us to work things out within the context of the marriage, but since she didn't feel the same way she needed to do what she thought was right, and if that meant moving out she should go as soon as she was ready. So that's pretty much where we left things, with her saying it was too late, and the marriage has been too much work, and she just didn't want to do it anymore.

So she gave me a big hug and then headed off to her parents. Two minutes later she came back through the front door (her parents live two houses away) and said she just needed to give me one more hug, and then she asked me if I wanted to watch a movie when she got back from her parents.

This woman... sometimes I think she might be just a wee bit crazy.