330 or 4am is my wake up and think about H too. I often think "is this really happening?! Is this a nightmare?!" Yup.
I actaully got some hypnosis downloads on my phone that I listen to at the times I can;t fall back asleep. Topics like positive thinking, quiet mind, improve your mood...
Not sure how well it works, but I fall back alseep really easily while listening. (Got used to sleeping with the ear-buds in).
Sounds like you are on the right track. And that you are doing a good job with your boys...
M:41 H:38 D:6 D:3 M:11 yrs T:15 yrs Bomb: Feb 8/14 Seperated: Feb 12/14
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Plato