330 or 4am is my wake up and think about H too. I often think "is this really happening?! Is this a nightmare?!" Yup.

I actaully got some hypnosis downloads on my phone that I listen to at the times I can;t fall back asleep. Topics like positive thinking, quiet mind, improve your mood...

Not sure how well it works, but I fall back alseep really easily while listening. (Got used to sleeping with the ear-buds in).

Sounds like you are on the right track. And that you are doing a good job with your boys...


M:41
H:38
D:6
D:3
M:11 yrs
T:15 yrs
Bomb: Feb 8/14
Seperated: Feb 12/14

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Plato