I love doing the reading, it has been a lifesaver. I still am having a hard time detaching. My feelings really vary about the whole sitation. Online is the only safe place to talk about how I feel. Friends and family care for me, but do not understand. I cannot even explain why I am staying. I just feel like at this point it is the right thing to do. However, that being said, I have a hard time grounding myself. The detaching from the OW and EA and PA is so hard. It might be easier if we lived in seperate homes, but he won't leave. H also has some mental issues but quit IC. I have not mentioned MLC or mental issues bc I know that would not help. At least through this I have realized I am stronger than I thought. I also see him as sick, and how could I leave him? I just need to detach. UGH!!!
