Bright, It takes time to stay on the path. You, like all of us, will have good and bad days. Feel the emotions and then let them go.
Now that you are getting ready to join the work force once again, you won't have the luxury of "free time" to analyze your h during the day. Your mind and body will be busy doing other things, like interacting w/people and staying busy. When you return home at the end of the day, you'll be tired and have your normal things to do that you use to do during the day. Your life is getting ready to change and I think it's going to be a good change for you. You had entirely too much time on your hands to think about your h and what he's been doing. Now, it's going to be Bright's time.
If you don't receive a job offer by Wednesday, I would plan to move forward w/reporting to work on Monday.
Bright, you are going to be okay. The world is waiting to show you what life has to offer.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
