Discovering the buck stops here....

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Allow yourself time to grieve, schedule it if you need to - like 30 minutes after dinner, just go somewhere alone (even if it is just the bathtub) and cry, let it out. Journal - just writing it out helps to get some of it out of your system - if your pray - then pray and pray often for strength. I was praying probably 10 times a day or more in the beginning, and I was not someone who prayed until BD, I was agnostic and now i'm like one of those jail house converted - but it HELPS. Putting it in His hands takes some of the weight off your shoulders. Exercise as a release. Meditate, deep breathing exercises, yoga. You cannot ignore the grief and it will revisit you if you don't work through it. If you are going to counseling as a couple, see about going for yourself. Depression is a big part of grief (there's 5 stages in grief if you follow Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross) and we go through all of them. There's Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Letting go, and Acceptance. Depression is a big part of stage 1 and stage 4. sorry I am rambling now, just gonna send a big hug your way. we're here for you!