More points to ponder...

[wishing, hoping]

Hello all

I had a fantastic weekend with the kids. We spent a lot of time outside Friday and Saturday. Lots of snuggle time with D yesterday. I had a bad moment when D told me she and OW had matching toes. It took everything inside me to maintain calmness. I almost melted down but I let it go. D and I matched our fingernails instead. I just told myself D would feel the same way if it was another little girlfriend so I just let her be. It was hard though. I did have the stab wound to the heart for a bit. Kind of ashamed that I felt that way though.

I started cleaning out the flower bed in front of the house. It is an absolute mess. I have no idea where to even start with this whole thing. I tried pulling weeds and grasses from around what I think are flowers. It looks better but I am to a section that is thick with grasses and weeds and a big scary looking bush that I think is Buckthorn so I will have to contend with that. I have never ever tended to a flower bed other than pulling weeds before. I never had any interest before, but it looks horrible, and I can't stand it. So here we go...trial by fire. It's all mine now. I don't think the landlord will even care. I will call him to make sure, but I don't think it is going to be an issue. In the meantime I am looking on Craigslist for a patio table and chairs. Something weatherproof and inexpensive. I would also like to get a fire pit. Time to turn this place into something I have always wanted.

S met a new friend. A few doors down lives a boy who is about 15 or 16 years old and plays soccer. He has come down a few times looking to talk to S and S has been with H or at another function. So we strolled down there on Saturday night and I introduced them. S was nervous and shy but once I broke the ice he was fine. They ended up chatting until 10:00 that night so now S has someone to hang with and they can walk down to the soccer field and kick the ball around. I just wish there was a little girl for D to play with.

So mediation has been scheduled, but it's on a day where I committed to chaperoning D's class trip to the zoo. She begged me to come with her so I am not breaking that promise. No one consulted or asked if I was available to meet with the mediator on that date they just scheduled it. I emailed the attorney and told him I was unavailable for that day and time. I hope everyone will be okay with that. But I had a prior commitment. But I guess it was hard to pin down a time and date because H was being demanding (what else is new) and tried to talk to the mediator without my attorney being involved. Apparently the mediator wanted a conference call with my attorney and H so my attorney called H who said he was unavailable and wanted them to call back in 10 minutes. After my attorney hung up, H called the mediator and wanted to talk to him without my attorney being in on the loop. The mediator told H my attorney had to be involved.

So no surprise H is still up to sneaky tricks. I hope the mediator (who is a retired divorce attorney) will see through the monkey business.

WH