buz 28: finally feeling worthy... a new beginning

[LoisB]

Ya know Magic. Over on my thread, I'm being called on my craaap. I need to hear it. I need to face it.

No offense, I'm sure you are a great person, but you are so full of craaap. You are an expert B.S.-er on Acid.

I still think something else is going on with you that you are protecting like the a heroin addict. Is the addiction to your BF?? Is it an addiction to men?? Is it alcohol?? I have no clue. But, I've lived with this disease too long not to sense it.

I lived with addicts/alcoholics my while life and I hear the same addict B.S. on your thread that I've heard in my life with these people who avoid, avoid, avoid and use every excuse in the book to avoid, avoid, avoid...

Still, not sure why you are here.

This is what I suspect...You got scared because someone in your life rocked the boat and asked more from you. Are you here because your EXBF called you on some behavior and left? And, it scared you?? You thought you'd be alone and you freaked??? Now, it's looking like the status quo is going to stay just that? Same ol, same ol. And, your fear has subsided some??

I'm being harsh with myself today. I'm forcing myself to face some ugly truths.

Here's my harsh feedback for you. I think you like to be the belle of the ball and the center of attention. I'm guilty of that myself.

But, I still don't see you taking any action. Don't waste anyone's time here when others are in so much pain and working so hard to right their lives. It's selfish to do so. Maybe I only notice it because I've been guilty of it myself.