Tx for your concerns ladies, but I think I've got this.... I have got to start trusting myself and my instincts too. Being responsible for my feelings.
I am in a better place. I know that I want commitment, I know that he does too.
It may not be quite the straight/direct road there, but I am in a stronger place now, that I feel I can handle it. I am in the drivers seat of my own self. As long as "I feel" I am able to "date" him safely and that "I can" pull back when it feels like he is taking advantage. That I can "listen" to my own instinct. That I can "look" at him to decide for myself If I am hearing/seeing what needs to be said/done....or if I am being strung along.
He said exclusive is not a problem for him. I believe him and need to trust that.
I am leading at this point. I am focused on myself.... at this point, I WANT to consider him, not be so eager/desperate to have him back....
As long as I keep my feelings in check, not putting his feelings first... then I can do this.
I must watch myself....
NO EXPECTATIONS
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
