ladylu, Listen to your gut. If it says something isn't right, then it's not.
As to standing and how long to stand, you'll know when the time is right to step off the crazy train or continue to the next station.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
