Bug - I am not saying that her not loving me makes me the villain. Rather, I am saying that in her universe with this story I simply AM the villain - and that creates a shield from personal accountability and self assessment - which is a hard thing to do. That's just my take, I am not speaking in absolutes.
I have all but relegated myself to the fact that this won't make sense to me and I am trying to maintain faith that something larger and better is at work and down the road for me. After the OM revelation I am doing my best to just hand it all over and walk away. I have gone dark -- way dark. I do not initiate any contact and I don't really respond much to any of hers if/when it comes about.
