"It's not like there are a lot of good guys out there like you" - I remember wanting to say "I AM RIGHT HERE!!" in front of you! I love you! I love our son!. So maybe on one level, 25, she thinks highly of me - MAYBE....big maybe. But somehow any positive feelings she may or may not have for me seem to be easily short-circuited or erased for whatever reasons. Maybe just for the simple fact that in this "tale" that has been spun I have been cast in the role of villain in her mind and she just can't move me out of it right now.
Crimson, her not loving you doesn't make you a villain. It doesn't make you anything more than you allow. About the comment from the girl you dated who can't figure out why W left, I know plenty of good people in the world that I don't "love" probably would never be in love with.
You twist yourself in knots trying to make sense of all this and the bottom line is, it may never make sense to you, it doesn't have to make sense to you, it just is.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
