1. Who am I? 2. What do I need, want and expect from a man and a relationship? 3. How can I be in a relationship of any kind with him without violating my standards or giving up what I want and need? What am I willing to accept in the way of his terms/conditions for a relationship?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
